I'm sorry mother I couldn't read in between the lines

Do you love me mother? 

Do you love me?

Like, really love me?

You say you hate me everyday.

You ignore me most hours.

You throw dinner at my feet.

You spit words of fire on my face.

You curse me with words beneath the sun in many tongues.

You labelled me the black sheep in the family.

You've spilled my attempts of forgiveness.

... and now I have nothing left to forgive.

But I am your eldest daughter mother.

Why?

Father, do you love me?

Do you love so?

Like, really love me?

You feed your son the love I've never tasted.

You spray some love to my sister who now sleeps in my room. 

You look me in the eyes whilst a storm brews and cast me aside.

You whisper threats in my ear.

You've spilled my attempts of forgiveness.

... and now I have nothing left to forgive.

But I am your second eldest daughter father.

Why?

Mother, father.

I am leaving.

I will go somewhere nice and peaceful. A place where there is no sound, no light, no love and no one.

I know you will miss me greatly but hate me maybe.

Because I am your daughter.

But you have both spilled my forgiveness till nothing remains. 

So I can leave you all behind without forgiveness.

And you will shed tears too with no forgiveness.

So we will part ways on equal ground.

Mother, Father.

I know you want whats best for me.

I know you have love for me.

But a blind man can't walk the streets without a stick.

Mother, Father.

I was blind. 

I didn't see your love for me.

I never spelled any love.

I never tasted it either.

I never touched the love you all shared.

It was too far away.

Mother, Father. 

A blind mans other senses enhance right? They're supposed to feel,touch,smell and taste better RIGHT!

BUT!

But....

...But I couldn't. 

Where was the love?

You didn't have a stick to help walk either....

^_^ 

Now I've walked into this darkness with nothing but bitterness.

Its not so bad.

I can at least feel.

Mother, Father. I hope you have a good life. Say bye to sister and brother okay?

Its too late now.

Bye.

P.s 

I'm sorry mother I couldn't read in between the lines